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Okay so this is my first ACTUAL blog so bare with me.

So basically my boyfriend broke up with me today. He called it a “break” but really what is break. Apparently, I am a total bitch(like a bitch too much), I am too emotional, I annoy the Hell out of him, I am too “high maintenance”, or I guess it’s cause I’ve gained weight that he’s decided to make it official. He wasn’t acting like we were together. Never wanna hold me or my hand, uses every excuse not to kiss me (sex don’t count), easily embarrassed and annoyed by me, hates to cuddle, just plain treats me like I’m one of his buddies (again sex don’t count lol). Now it’s only me that has changed. Apparently, he doesn’t like the girl that I’ve become (why he just wanted a “break”, I have no idea).

To explain our relationship, when I was 15 I lived in AL, where I met him. We hit it off and were absolutely inseparable. It was the perfect romance. We were both virgins (too scared to really take it that far) but we did make out a lot, like no other. Anyways, I had to move and it was very hard on the both of us. We stuck it out for like 6 months then we lost hope really of ever being together again and broke it off. Well 3 years later (we kept in touch off and on like birthdays and whatnot), he decides he missed what we had and so do I so he decides to go to college where ever I go and boom here we are. We are now in our sophomore year of college and have been dating(this time) for a year and some days.

First off the reason I’m so emotional is because he’s become a total asshole lately and is really rude sometimes and yeah imma big crybaby but thats just me.  I mean really would you let your boyfriend talk to you ANY KINDA WAY joking or not. I mean come on there’s I line to be drawn for stuff like that. I just don’t know what to do because as long as he’s always being a cold hearted douche I’m always going to be emotional. I mean this kid can’t possibly ALWAYS be “just playing”, I mean apparently he’s NEVER serious.